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I had a dust-up this evening with Armoured Skeptic, who I have never talked to in my life other than on the #FreedomOfTweets stream, which I had a lot of fun doing. To be clear, I would do it again in a heartbeat, even with people I didn’t like, although we had no issue at that time. Anyway, people are naturally asking me what this whole thing is about. I guess a blog post is the easiest way to tell you.

I never had a problem with Shoe0nHead back when GamerGate first started. I noticed that she only followed a select group of people, much like she does now. After I got known in the movement, I tried to follow her a couple times and noticed she never followed back. Now, most of you would rightly say that’s not a big deal…because it isn’t. If someone doesn’t want to follow me back, that’s fine. I just unfollow them and move on. It was just curious to me how she followed every other name GG’er except myself. It made me wonder if she had some kind of issue with my work. That may sound silly, but it’s something that crossed my mind. Some of you all might not understand this, but there was always this high school kind of mentality behind the scenes in GG. It’s one of the reason the unity ended up breaking down.

As for my work, it didn’t consist of “Hey, I’m a girl who plays games, #NotYourShield, blah, blah, blah.” I put in hours upon hours, months upon months, all to try to document what was going on in GamerGate. I think I did a pretty good job and even a lot of the people who hate me now give me credit for that early period. Was it perfect? No. Is my style for everyone? Of course not. I just figured she just didn’t care for my work, which again, is fine.

But almost every time she would interact with me, it would be to take some sort of shot, almost without fail. Still, I would tell myself that I was being paranoid. There’s probably nothing there, Ralph. Just chill. So, I did. It’s not like we interacted much, and even if didn’t care for me, so what? There’s lots of people I don’t care for. That’s everyone’s right. Just because we push some of the same things, doesn’t mean we have to like each other.

Still, I’m not the kind of person who is going to kiss someone’s ass just because they’re popular and/or attractive. I don’t give a shit about that. If you don’t like me, I don’t like you. It’s that simple. 

Fast forward to last fall, when she sent me this tweet…

(http://archive.is/ogl1Q)

(http://archive.is/YOlgB)

I actually considered the request, but then I said no, this is ridiculous. Plus, it’s not like Shoe had ever done anything for me. We weren’t friends. Hell, we weren’t even associates, really. Why on earth would I remove a post on my site that she didn’t want up? Plus, if you read the actual piece, I didn’t take any shots at her or Armoured Skeptic. In fact, I defended them.

Fast forward to January, when the Lily Feng storm happened. Well, guess who comes out of nowhere to start taking shots? Yes, Shoe0nHead. I thought we were cool, after she wished my girlfriend a happy vacation when I set off to visit her.

I even replied to the tweet…

You can’t even see the tweets from the Feng dispute between us, because she went and deleted all of hers (after talking to Nora) and so I did the same.

All that’s left is this (lol)…

(http://archive.is/eh1ah)

Now, I’m again thinking things are cool. Then, my Slack chat was selectively leaked in order to make me look bad. Guess who came out and joined in with BroTeamPill and the rest of the gang who were spreading hate my way? You guessed it, Shoe0nHead.

Sometime between Feng and the leak, she had blocked me. I guess things weren’t cool. I’m not sure if that’s because of some things said in the leak, or because she just decided she didn’t want to see me on her feed. Either way, I turned around and blocked her. If I see someone has me blocked, I block them.

After her behavior with the leaks, and another incident where she was laughing about my mugshot getting released, I decided to treat her as someone I didn’t like. So, when I saw this video, I made a short “lol” style comment…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAb1gKl7K_M

After that, Armoured Skeptic blocked me. Fair enough, because I then turned around and blocked him. Earlier tonight, Shoe was doing a stream with my friend and occasional TRR contributor FeministFlow (aka FeministPeriod on Twitter and TRR). I went in the chat and made a sarcastic comment about these being my two favorite people.

Then this goon Skeptic tweets out a screenshot of that next to one of me having him blocked…while neglecting to mention he had me blocked.

It got a lot of play, because well, an awful lot of people hate me. Again, fair enough. I tell people to fuck off all the time. I’m not in this game for that. I don’t aspire to be mainstream. Modulating my views to reach that is not something I’ve ever wanted to do. I have a nice niche and it works for me. I expect that I will continue to grow here and on YouTube, but not at the expense of selling out.

Fuck that.

There’s a lot of other back and forth where I trash them both and he takes more shots at me. I’m not sorry about it one bit. I’d definitely do it again because not responding to attacks is something I don’t do. Is this a big deal? Of course not, the whole thing is pretty goofy. The only reason I’m wasting time on this long ass article is because at least 30 people asked me what the deal was and it’s not something I could quickly explain. I doubt some sort of reconciliation could happen, but as I always have been, I’m open to it. If not, whatever. I won’t lose any sleep over it either way.

The cool kids club is not something I aspire to. I speak my mind and I don’t suck up to people just because they have a big YouTube audience. Some people don’t like me, some people hate me, even. Again, whatever. It’s not going to stop what I do or the way I do it. Hopefully this article explained my side of this inane dispute. If not, fuck it. I tried.