A reader asked me something the other day on Ask.fm: “You suffer, but why?” Well, it’s a good question. I’ve been sort of cryptic about my problem, because it doesn’t involve just me. I wanted to be respectful of others who don’t care to live their lives out online. But, this is my site. Writing and getting feedback is one of the great joys in my life. So without getting too much into the weeds, I wanted to talk about things a little bit. This is not your regular type of column, so if you want to skip it, feel free.

Basically, someone that I held close for many years, quit on me. It happens to people everyday. Really, this is a First World Problem in a lot of respects. I still have something to eat, and a roof over my head. But anyone that has had this happen can tell you that it can feel worse than a death. So many of you believe in me. How can someone who I shared my innermost thoughts with for so long give up on me? My readers are mostly strangers, but they have more faith in me than this person does. It throws you for a loop.


My previous article talking about this brought in some amazing words and reactions. I’m still abiding by what I wrote there. Dulling the pain is not an option. Instead, I want to take that hurt and use it to fuel the fire. I realize that doing a post like this is kind of out of character, as was the last piece. But writing is what I do. I may start doing more life posts (and reviews, btw) in the style of Mike Cernovich to provide for a break from the SJW freaks who usually populate these pages. There won’t be too many, so don’t get worried. I’m not losing my edge. If anything, I’m sharpening my fucking blade…

Dwelling on the past will see your future get sunk. People move on. This thing we call life doesn’t always workout the way you had it planned in your head. But if you still have your health and an attitude that says “I will succeed no matter what” then you can do anything you want to do. There is always more time…until there isn’t. So get to work today. Don’t postpone things you wanted to do or say. Seize the day. That’s what I’m planning.

This is me putting a ribbon on my blue period. I felt like I needed to write something about it here. Maybe I didn’t, but I felt that way lol. This same person who threw in the towel said to me a few weeks back:

“Keep your site. That and #GamerGate are all you have left now.”

That’s not true, but even if it was, I would be a lucky man. The kindness and outreach that I’ve received from this community has warmed my heart, and will never be forgotten. You guys picked me up when I was low, and continue to do so. But that’s in the past now. I’m truly looking towards the future for the first time in a month (probably a lot longer, actually). All of you should do the same. Stop putting your life on hold, and do what you need to do to reach your potential…and your happiness.

Thank you all again for letting me get this off my chest, and for your support. I’ll be back tonight to throw some blows against the SJW menace. Until then, here’s a another message from one of my heroes, Richard Pryor: